intense... very high and very low, not much in between this was after a break up and the subject is not always related to a moment in my life, sometimes I just expand my ideas in that direction and either way I can't draw funny or simple stuff, I'd feel like wasting my time. it's either intense or it just isn't
Manic-depressive type of personality? Do you hate boredom and routine, too?
I do feel that intensity. There's a lot of cheerful and cute art, mine included (don't want to get more depressed working on a picture), but not many pieces of genuine anguish. Generally I consider art "preserved energy", and that spectrum of energy considered "negative" contains more power than its opposition. Maybe it has something to do with survival instincts...
some people find treating profound & dark subjects in art disturbing if taken to the extreme, others find it beautiful and liberating. I fall in the last category, I don't have any visceral response to this type of art. expressiveness + intensity = beauty for me and it will always super-seed the plain/calm beauty. I need that extra thing that pushes your mind further than the drawing itself, that metaphor/symbol... and this is the only type of art that I can do without throwing it away even when I'm happy, crazy in love or whatever, I express that in a very exuberant but serious way. I can't do cheerful and cute, it always feels somewhat unaccomplished.
I do hate boredom and routine manic-depressive it is I guess, never really looked into what type of personality I am
Serious... I understand that, and in real life I tend to be serious (except for occasional fits of crazy mirth), but what I value most is a Good Idea. It may be humorous, and most times it is, because I read Pratchett and enjoy a nice ironic phrase more than dark drama. In fact, I'm trying to force the dark drama out of myself since childhood, to replace it by light, because only this enables me to make progress. When depressed, I don't want to live, let alone making art. I need faith to stay efficient, but my emotions are unfaithful - so only Brain is reliable, only its ideas. They might be weird and dark, though. I want to draw some disgusting monster, for a change. Whatever original idea motivates me. I just don't like to waste them, that's what makes me wrestle the difficulties of making quality digital art, being completely self-taught, not self-confident and a perfectionist.